I've spent two years in prison relaying stories sent by letters to a blogger about my crimes, arrests, and life in four Florida prisons, the Pinellas County Jail, juvenile detention and drug rehab. I'm sending a message to others not to make the same mistakes I did.


Sunday, August 30, 2009

Not knowing

On September 8th, I have a [yet another] pre-trial court date. By then I will have been in jail 15 months (with a short three days in there 11 months ago when I was let out).

What kills me the most is not the time I'm facing - it's the fact that I don't know what will happen.

I hate not knowing.

I watch people come in here - and within a few months at the most - they get some kind of offer, whether it's prison or probation. But in my case, I haven't got an offer yet.

Every time I go to court, my court dates just get pushed back for one reason or another.

I know I put myself in this position, but I don't even know if they are willing to give me a deal or slam me on the head.

I just want to know.

I don't think I'm in a position to complain about anything, but if I had a lawyer that was competent and did her job, I would be much happier.

Please pray for me on September 8, 2009. Thank you!


*Note: Ted faces 3½ years of prison time. He hopes to either get probation, house arrest, or a sentence for a drug rehab program in St. Pete called Solid Rock - see link on right.

1 comment:

  1. I am praying for you. It sounds like you have clearly decided to change your life. It can't be easy to do, but it sounds to me like you will do it. I am also praying for my nephew, who is headed to jail in his future if he doesn't change...Is it possible to change someone if they don't want to? I dont think so. Because you want to change, you will succeed. I am sure of it. God will take care of you.

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