I've spent two years in prison relaying stories sent by letters to a blogger about my crimes, arrests, and life in four Florida prisons, the Pinellas County Jail, juvenile detention and drug rehab. I'm sending a message to others not to make the same mistakes I did.


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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Earn $2 a day!

If you think you've got it bad making minimum wage, you could always come to the jail and (if you're lucky enough to become a trustee) earn $2 a day.

A couple of months ago, I started working as a trustee in my pod. There are five trustees for approximately 72 inmates in a pod.

Trustees can basically do five jobs:

Houseman (who sweeps, empties trash and hands out cleaning supplies)
Cleaning bathrooms and toilets
Cleaning showers
Laundry
Barber

I started out by cleaning showers. There are six showers (for our pod) and they are cleaned two times a day. It takes between 15 - 25 minutes to clean one shower. I used bleach and shower cleaner and cleaned with a scrubbing sponge and a bucket.

I then got moved to do laundry. I work on laundry from 4 p.m. - 11 p.m. by popping loads in and out of the washer and dryer. I can do other things like read while stuff is washing.


Loads of t-shirts, boxers and socks from all the inmates are washed and dried. The washer and dryer here looks like a typical washer and dryer in a home. They're not commercial machines.

Each inmate's personal clothing items are labeled with their initials. When the stuff is all done, it's all put on a table and the inmates come and grab their own items. If something's not labeled, then it's inevitably grabbed by someone else.

Uniforms and sheets are sent to the laundry in another building. Uniforms on our pod are attractive. They look like surgical shirt and pants except they're navy blue with red stripes on the short sleeves.

Trustees wear red ball caps. Each trustee earns $2 a day, which can be used to buy commissary items. (See blog entry titled 'Menu of jail commissary items' for things we can buy and prices.)


I'll never complain about minimum wage again...

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Quarantine at the Pinellas County Jail

Today I'm not feeling well. Maybe I have the flu...

The other day another inmate here was sick and they thought that he might have the swine flu.

It turns out he didn't, but because of that event, the Lieutenant came into our pod to say that there was no swine flu in our building.

At the time, we accepted that answer, but it turns out she lied.

I know she lied because in the downstairs pod, none of the trustees are allowed to come out of their pod and work like they do every day.

This is not something I was told, this is something I know because they came at 3 a.m. to come get me to do their job.

Another reason I know she lied is because all the deputies on the 2nd floor (where the trustee pods are) are wearing masks.

How are you going to sit there and tell me there is no threat when all the guards are wearing masks and the 2nd floor is quarantined?

Second chance

By Josh 'J' Barberree (fellow inmate)

Choices are often times made not fully understanding the consequences we are to face once our five minutes of fame are gone.

But it's these very choices that give us the inner strength to stand tall and battle those things in life that seem to be a continuing weight to our being.

When we can look back on a situation and see what mistakes we made and use them for strength to overcome the negative forces that we deal with in our life, then we are the winners.

Don't let life choices be your downfall. Accelerate yourself toward change and know it's the second chance in life that will forever put us on top.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Today's thoughts

Today I read some of the comments other people wrote to me.

Most of it was extremely encouraging and shows me people are listening.

But a couple of comments showed me I'm not the only one with problems and I really hope that those are the people that will listen to me.

I'm not trying to save the world. I'm just trying to help those who will listen.

I can tell some people read my blogs, but do you really listen to what I have to say?

Anyway, having said that, I also noticed some of you think I'm using a computer - which in turn may be costing tax-payers money. For those of you that think that, you are dead wrong. There are no computers in here and no internet.

I write my blogs on paper and send them to my mom - who then posts them word for word.

I want to end this by saying to my mom - thank you for everything you've done. Without you none of this was possible. I love you.

You will be missed

Today a friend of mine here in my pod got sentenced to 25 years in prison.

I wanted to write this blog entry for him.

There are some of us that are good people at heart, but who've just made really bad choices.


In my friend's case, he was the most caring, kind, and easiest person to be around, but he just made one bad mistake that he will have to live with for the rest of his life.

Most of us are lucky if we make a poor choice. We get probation or a little bit of jail time, or at the most, a couple years in prison.

My heart goes out to those that may never be released from prison because of a mistake.

Don't get me wrong. There are plenty of people who deserve to be locked away forever, but not my friend.

I hope that in prison, even though it will be extremely improbable, if not impossible, he will better himself and not become someone who believes he is destined to be in prison forever.

Friend, my heart goes out to your loved ones. I know they care about you very much. Even though you can't be with them, you are always in their thoughts - and mine too.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Menu of jail commissary items

Here's a picture of part of the Pinellas County Detention Facility North and Central Menu. It looks like one of those standardized tests where you color in a circle. (Circles are numbered 1 - 10 and there's also a number 15 - the quantity of each item ordered.)

Each inmate is supplied with basic cheap stuff such as toothpaste and soap.


The items on this menu are things an inmate can buy with any money they have in their commissary account (supplied by friends and/or family by moneyorder). Inmates can place their orders twice a week.

The list is interesting in and of itself.

4 oz Balsam Shampoo.......................................$1.00
4 oz Balsam Conditioner....................................$1.00
Blue Magic Berg. Cond......................................$1.99
Pro Glo Gel Pomade....................................,......$2.50
Men A/P Sport Talc 3 oz.....................................$3.10
Womens Speed Stick.........................................$2.75
4 oz Baby Powder...............................................$1.25
4 oz Skin Care Lotion.........................................$1.24
Skin Care Lotion 15 oz.......................................$2.40
Cocoa Butter Lotion 15 oz..................................$2.40
Noxema 2.5 oz.....................................................$3.00
Hydrocortisone Cream........................................$2.25
Tolnafate Antifungal Crea...................................$2.99
Chapstick.............................................................$1.35
Magic Cream Shave Depilat..............................$2.92
Brushless Shave Cream 4.7...............................$2.52
Max Body Shampoo 15 oz..................................$2.75
Max Body Conditioner 15 oz...............................$2.75
Dandruff Shampoo 15 oz.....................................$3.35
Next 1 Cocoa Butter Bar......................................$0.85
Ivory Soap 3.1 oz..................................................$0.95
Next 1 Sports Bar.................................................$0.95
Cool Wave Toothpaste........................................$1.65
Soap Dish.............................................................$0.95
6 oz Mouthwash Mint (Non-A .............................$1.29
3 oz Colgate Toothpaste.....................................$2.06
Tek Med. Toothbrush...........................................$0.99
APAP (Like X Stgth Tyl) 2pk...............................$0.49
White Toothbrush Caps.......................................$0.25
Iprin (Like Advil) 2 pk...........................................$0.49
Ex_Lax 6 Count....................................................$2.50
Tums 3 Roll Pack.................................................$2.25
Hemorrhoidal Oint 2 oz........................................$4.25
Effergrip Delete Stay Denture Adhesive...........$3.79
Triple Antibotic Ointment.....................................$2.75
Halls Cough Drops...............................................$1.25
Optopics Tetra. Eye Drop...................................$3.00
Saline Solution 12 oz...........................................$2.94
Contact Lens Case..............................................$2.75
Tampons 1Box.....................................................$4.79
Cotton Swabs 90 Ct Box.....................................$0.99
7 inch comb...........................................................$0.75
Hairbrush W/O Handle.........................................$1.58
Foam Rollers Med................................................$2.00
Foam Rollers Lrg..................................................$3.00
Large Stamped Envelope...................................$0.60
Manilla Envelope..................................................$0.28
12.5 X 15.5 White Envelope...............................$1.00
6.5 X 9.5 Envelope..............................................$0.25
Wireless Notebook..............................................$1.40
Book of Ten Stamps............................................$4.20
Small Address Book...........................................$1.00
8.5 X 11 Letter Pad Wht.....................................$1.25
Sketch Pad 8.5 X 11 White................................$1.40
#2 Pencil.............................................................$0.20
Colored Pencils 12/Box.....................................$3.19
Pocket Dictionary...............................................$3.50
Paper Mate Ball Med Black..............................$0.21
Birthday Card.....................................................$1.99
Juvenile Care......................................................$1.99
Sympathy Card...................................................$1.99
Get Well Card.....................................................$1.99
Friendship Card..................................................$1.99
Thank You Card..................................................$1.99
Seasonal Card....................................................$1.99
AA Ion Battery 2 Pk.............................................$1.25
Koss Headphones...............................................$5.50
2 Each AAA Battery............................................$1.25
Sony Clear AM/FM Radio W/Headphones......$25.99
Playing Cards......................................................$1.89
Pinochle Cards....................................................$1.89
Chess&Checker Combo....................................$6.75
Bowl W/Lid...........................................................$0.75
Spoon (Plastic)....................................................$0.05
S.S. Tasters Choice Coffe..................................$0.30
4 oz Keefe Coffee...............................................$3.50
3 oz FD Colombian Coffee................................$3.50
Nescafe Coffee 4 oz...........................................$3.85
10 Pk Salt............................................................$0.15
10 Pk Pepper......................................................$0.15
S.S. Hot Cocoa...................................................$0.35
Sugar Twin Packet..............................................$0.03
Sugar Packet Single...........................................$0.03
S.S. Creamer.......................................................$0.07
N/S SS Tea W/Lemon........................................$0.30
S.S. Orange Breakfast Dri.................................$0.30
S.S. Tea W/Lemon.............................................$0.30
S.S. Fruit Punch..................................................$0.30
S.S. Lemonade...................................................$0.30
Nestea W/Lemon 5.5 oz.....................................$1.30
18 oz Jar Orange Drink.......................................$2.89
19 oz Jar Tea W/Lemon......................................$3.00
Grape Drink Mix 19 oz.........................................$3.00
Peach Drink Mix 19 oz.........................................$3.00
Velveeta Mac & Cheese......................................$1.60
Velveeta Cheesy Rice..........................................$1.60
Spicy Velveeta Cheesy Rice...............................$0.99
Velveeta Cheesy Refried Beans.........................$0.99
Spicy Velveeta Cheesy Refried Beans...............$1.70
Spicy Velveeta Cheesy Ref Beans & Rice.........$1.70
Peanut Butter Creme Cookies..............................$1.30
Swiss Vanilla Creme Cookies..............................$0.69
Oreo Sandwich Cookies........................................$0.69
Vanilla Creme Cookies 6 oz..................................$1.30
Orange-Pineapple Cookies 6 o............................$1.30
Chocolate Chip Cookies 6 oz................................$1.30
Iced Oatmeal Cookies 6 oz....................................$1.30
Duplex Creme Cookies 6 oz..................................$1.30
Turkey Sausage.......................................................$1.90
Saltine Crackers.......................................................$0.75
Cheese/Peanut Butter Crac....................................$0.59
Cuban Crackers 3 oz...............................................$0.59
Strawberry Poptarts 2 pk.........................................$1.00
Banana Marshmallow Pie........................................$0.79
Chocolate Marshmallow Pie....................................$0.79
Iced Cinnamon Roll 4 oz...........................................$0.90
4.75 oz Jumbo Honeybun.........................................$0.95
Monster Honeybun....................................................$1.05
Strawberry Donuts....................................................$0.80
Bear Claw..................................................................$0.90
Chocolate Thunder Donuts 6 pk..............................$2.50
Rice Krispie Treats...................................................$0.65
M&M Plain..................................................................$0.99
M&M Peanut...............................................................$0.99
Almond Joy.................................................................$0.99
Baby Ruth...................................................................$0.99
Butterfinger.................................................................$0.99
Snickers Bar...............................................................$0.99
Milky Way Candy Bar.................................................$0.99
Payday........................................................................$0.99
Zero Bar......................................................................$0.99
Twix Bar......................................................................$0.99
Three Musketeer Bar..................................................$0.99
Reeses P/Butter Cup..................................................$0.99
Hershey's Chocolate Bar............................................$0.99
Hershey's W/Almonds.................................................$0.99
Nutrageous Bar...........................................................$0.99
Kit Kat..........................................................................$0.99
Skittles.........................................................................$0.99
Hershey's Kisses 3 oz................................................$0.99
Lemon Drops...............................................................$0.99
Red Licorice Twist.......................................................$0.99
Rootbeer Barrels.........................................................$0.99
Jolly Ranchers Asst 3.70.............................................$1.35
Atomic Fire Balls..........................................................$0.99
Sour Fruit Balls 4.25 oz...............................................$0.99
Dibgy Allstars 3.75 oz..................................................$0.90
Sugar Free Wild Fruit 1.7............................................$0.99
Tootsie Rolls.................................................................$0.99
Chicken Ramen Noodles..............................................$0.69
Shrimp Ramen Noodles...............................................$0.69
Beef Ramen Noodle.......................................................$0.69
Cajun Shrimp Ramen Noodle........................................$0.69
Texas Beef Ramen Noodle............................................$0.69
Chili Ramen Noodle........................................................$0.69
Oriental Ramen Noodle...................................................$0.69
Cajun Chicken Ramen.....................................................$0.69
Chicken/Mushroom Ramen.............................................$0.69
The Whole Shabang 1.5 oz.............................................$0.90
Potato Chips.....................................................................$0.90
BBQ Potato Chips............................................................$0.90
Pretzel 11 oz.....................................................................$2.39
Hot & Spicy Corn Chips...................................................$0.90
Hot Fries (Andy Capp).....................................................$0.90
C.A. Cheese Crunch 11 oz.............................................$2.25
CA Round Tortilla Chips...................................................$1.99
Hot&Spicy Chips...............................................................$0.90
Sour Cream Onion Chips.................................................$0.90
Hot Spicy Pork Rinds........................................................$0.90
Caramel Popcorn 3.53 oz.................................................$1.50
Keefe 10 oz Nacho Chips.................................................$2.29
C.A. BBQ Corn Chips 12 oz.............................................$2.29
FC Mackeral.......................................................................$1.89
FC Sardines in Oil..............................................................$1.89
FC Crabmeat......................................................................$2.00
BC Chicken.........................................................................$3.00
Tropical Blend.....................................................................$1.25
Onion Dip 3.5 oz.................................................................$1.21
Nacho Dip W/Jal 4 oz.........................................................$1.21
12 Pk Mayonnaise..............................................................$1.20
12 Pk Mustard.....................................................................$1.20
12 Pk Ketchup.....................................................................$1.20
Summer Sausage Hot 1.58 oz..........................................$0.99
Summer Sausage Pepperoni............................................$0.99
Whole Enchilada Party Mix 11 oz......................................$2.50
Granola Bar Choc Chip.......................................................$0.55
Grape Jelly 1 oz...................................................................$0.45
S.S. Peanut Butter................................................................$0.45
Creamy Peanut Butter 18 oz...............................................$2.99
Salsa Sqz Bottle 15.5 oz.....................................................$2.00
S.S. Cheddar Squeezers....................................................$0.89
S.S. Jalapeno Cheese Squeezer.......................................$0.89
Sharp Cheese Spread.........................................................$2.00
Strawberry Cereal Bar.........................................................$0.69
Spam.....................................................................................$1.89
Tortillas 6 Pk..........................................................................$1.50
Salted Peanuts......................................................................$0.65
Hot Hot Peanuts.....................................................................$0.65
Chicken Vienna Sausage.....................................................$2.25
Beef Stick Original.................................................................$1.25
Beef N Cheese.......................................................................$1.25
Beef N Cheese Hot................................................................$1.25
Summer Sausage..................................................................$2.25
Hot Beef Summer Sausage..................................................$2.25
Beef Salami...........................................................................$2.25
Fresh Catch Tuna 4.23 oz.....................................................$2.25

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Early morning scare

Before I tell this story, I need to tell you something first.

Almost all my life, I've lived with my mom and grandma, and my grandma would always call the cops over the littlest things. She never called them on me - she would call them because she was disabled and there would be a spider on the wall and she couldn't do nothing about it. So all the local cops knew my grandma by name.

Anyway, on with my story... One day, I was asleep in my mom's room while she was out of town and my friend was asleep in my room. I was awakened by my front door being kicked in and a few seconds later, the door across the hall was kicked in. I knew it was the police, but I wasn't looking forward to seeing what they wanted.

Then - to no surprise - they kicked my mom's bedroom door open and every officer that came in the room had guns pointed at me.

They handcuffed me and brought me out in the living room to question me. When they sat me down next to my friend - who looked like he had just died - they asked me "what I did with the body."

I was confused by what they had just asked me, but I knew they thought I had done something bad. Then they said again, "What did you do with your grandma's body?" I was stunned because as far as I knew, she was in her room probably watching TV or something. I told the police she was in her room and they told me that she wasn't anywhere on the property. I couldn't believe it because my grandma can't get out of bed and it made no sense.

The police were convinced I killed my poor grandma and they weren't going to believe otherwise 'til I could prove it. So here I am, just me, my black friend - who looked whiter than me at that moment - and about 15 police officers searching my house. When out of nowhere, a stray cat (that I have no idea how it got in my house in the first place) came running out of my room, zig zagging in between all the cops - scattering them like bowling pins - and ran straight through a plate glass window. When I say it ran through the window, I literally mean THROUGH the window - and it just kept going.


All the cops looked shocked.

I couldn't believe what I just saw myself. All the cops were convinced that I had fed the cat crack or something.

I couldn't believe any of this was really happening. It all seemed like a bad dream. For all the times for that cat to pick to act like it did, it had to pick the time when the police thought I killed my grandma.

Finally after a couple of hours, they found out my grandma had gone to a doctor's appointment (by ambulance) and she accidentally hit the 911 emergency call button when she left.

I have to say that was the worst start to a day I've ever had. And just so everybody knows - I would never harm my grandma. I love her very much. Oh, and I didn't feed that cat drugs of any kind.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Most recent fight

Like I said before, I no longer promote any violence, but there was a really good fight the other day.

I was out in the hall and when I came back, my roommate, Dave, came up to me and told me somebody stole 15 soups out of his locker. I went in the room to check and see if anybody stole my stuff, but my stuff was all there - which was surprising cause I had a lot more than Dave.

Anyway, we found out it was the guy in the room next to ours, Kyle. Dave asked me what he should do and I told him to leave it alone. I told him to leave it alone because he is the type of kid that gets picked on in school and I didn't want him to get beat up.

Later on that night, Dave heard Kyle in the next room talking about how he stole Dave's soups. So Dave went over there against all warnings and confronted him. Kyle jumped off his bed and pushed Dave. Right then I was about to stop it, so Dave wouldn't get hurt, but to my surprise, Dave hit him first. They went blow for blow for awhile, but then Kyle couldn't take it anymore and lost.

I wrote this because I always like to see the weak ones win a fight.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Hope

"You learn best from your worst mistakes." - Teen in Jail

I write a lot of stuff about my past experiences, but for now I want to write about my hope for the future.

All my life I've never had a dream.

The only thing I've ever had to look forward to is a release date.

Now - even though I'm in jail - I now have a hope for a better future, not only for me, but for other youth as well.

When I am released (whenever that may be) I am going to continue to write my blogs and hopefully be given an opportunity to speak at youthful offender programs.

I know from experience that some kids don't want to change - because I didn't want to change either.

Now I'm hoping for a better future for myself. So if I can do it, then anyone can.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Swine flu in the Pinellas County Jail

Last Wednesday (July 29), a guard wearing a mask took an inmate out of our pod. The inmate had flu symptoms, but he was returned to our pod an hour later.

All week long, the guards told us that although there were suspected cases of the swine flu at the jail, no one in the Central building had it.

Two or three days ago, we found out on the news on the Español channel that the whole 2nd floor of the Central building had been under quarantine. (I'm on the 4th floor.)

Nice way to find this out.

The Tampa Tribune reported on Thursday (July 30) that seven inmates had tested positive for the swine flu. The Trib stated that nine jail pods were quarantined, affecting 320 male and female inmates.

All I know
is that all the guards on our floor are wearing blue masks.

Five mug shots since I turned 18

1/4/08 Two misdemeanors - possession of marijuana

3/24/08 One felony - possession of cocaine

9/11/08 One misdemeanor - possession of marijuana

10/7/08 Two misdemeanors - possession of marijuana

10/31/08 Three felonies - Trafficking MDMA (Ecstasy), possession of cocaine, criminal mischief; one misdemeanor - possession of marijuana
Unfortunately, there are many more juvenile charges too.

Kids, drugs, crime and consequences

I want to reach kids like these. Drugs are getting kids as young as 7 or 8 (or younger!) into trouble.

Video of Pinellas County Jail

Just one of the many annoying things about life in jail... No matter where I am when I hear this loud, piercing siren, I know that it's 12 noon on Friday. They're supposedly testing the system, but I don't know if it's an escape alarm or what.

Is my life over before it begins?

Your whole life changes when you've been convicted of a felony.

I've had so many felony convictions - both as a juvenile and after I turned 18 - I've lost count.

Depending on the state you live in, a convicted felon:

· Can't join the armed forces.
· Can't vote.
· Can't own a gun.
· Can't own a passport [if you're on parole or probation]
· Can't hold a public office
· Can't teach in schools
· Can't work in any government office
· Can't hold any professional license (to be an electrician, plumber, etc...)


Most job applications ask if you've been convicted of a felony. I've heard of people in their 40s who were arrested in their teens who still have are having trouble getting jobs.

So, is my life over even before it starts?

Am I still a U.S. citizen?

Where will I work?

How can I ever get married and support a family?

These are things I think about every day. There's plenty of time here to think about them.

Monday, August 3, 2009

A Halloween army of ninjas

When an opportunity presented itself, oh, almost a year ago, I didn't stop to think about certain consequences. All I knew was that I needed some money and needed it quickly.

The price of cigarettes continued to climb and I smoked. When you're addicted to smoking, it ain't easy to quit. I needed cigarettes badly.

My best friend, Steven, received a phone call on his cell and asked me if I wanted to make $150. Sure, I said. Someone wanted to buy 50 Ecstasy pills (aka MDMA).
Steven vouched for the guy who was calling, but said the guy was calling for someone else whose name kinda sounded familiar. It was possible the actual buyer was an undercover cop that I had run into before - and had actually had called Internal Affairs on - but that's a separate story.
We both knew a dealer who supplied Ecstasy. All I needed to do was drive Steven's car to the Walmart parking lot, check out the buyer, and make sure it wasn't that particular cop. I would then call the dealer to give the all clear.
I drove to the Walmart parking lot outside of the Garden department. It was dark and I wasn't paying particular attention to the other cars parked in the parking lot. As I drove close, my attention was on one particular car all by itself.
When I got out - I swear - a guy in a uniform jumped out right next to me from [what seemed to be] directly inside a tree (!)
Within seconds, every car in the immediate vicinity was mobilized and I was surrounded. It seemed like men - some wearing all black, some in civilian clothes and some in uniforms (all wearing black ski masks) poured out of every single car. I felt like an army of ninjas was coming straight for me!
I tried to run, honest I did. Somehow, one grabbed me and I felt my body smash against the car roof and then I was slammed to the asphalt.
I'm guessing here, the guy was indeed the undercover cop. He leaned close and whispered, "I told ya I'd get ya" and smiled.
Maybe he was looking for revenge, but I was dumb enough to let him get it.
All for $150.
So here I sit.
I had just gotten out of the Pinellas County Jail three days before after spending four months behind bars.
Real smart, huh?
I was arrested on the night before Halloween. And I sure got a scare that night alright. Nine months and counting.
Who said smoking was harmless?

Sunday, August 2, 2009

A typical jail fight

Since I am trying to turn away from a life of crime, I no longer promote violence. But occasionally, I will see a fight that makes me glad I was close enough to witness it.
For instance, the other day, I was walking by another inmate's room and I heard a Spanish dude shout at a white guy. I'm not sure what he was yelling about, but still I tried to calm the guy down. I quickly realized there was no reasining with him, so I decided to watch.
The Spanish guy told the white guy to get off his top bunk. The white guy jumped off the bunk and reached down to put on his shoes on to fight. The Spanish guy rushed him anbd kicked him in the face four times before the white guy could put his hands up.
I tried to pull the Spanish guy off, but because I'm not a big guy, I wasn't doing too well. Next thing I knew, it was all over. There was blood EVERYWHERE. The poor white guy had a permanent shoe print on his face.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Teen in Jail appears in Florida's Sun Sentinel

Mom helps son blog - from jail

Next thing you know, he'll be tweeting. But for now, he's just blogging. A sample:
"If I haven't said it already, jail sucks," Kelly Shannon Kelly read from a letter written by her 20-year-old son Theodore Braden, an inmate in the Pinellas County jail.

The little boy she had such high hopes for now sits in the Pinellas County Jail facing charges for trafficking MDMA (Ecstasy), reports
10 Connects.

Braden has been in and out of trouble since the age of 13. While his mother tried to explain to him things would be different after he became an adult at 18, he didn't learn.

As a kid, his jail stints were a couple of days.

His stay this time around has exceeded one year. And he turned 20 in jail.

His blog
Teen in Jail was born.

He gets a helping hand from his mom.

Since Braden doesn't have access to the internet in jail, he writes letters to her which she then posts on his blog. If he can't get a letter, his mother takes notes during her weekly visits.

"They only see sun for two hours a day," she read from a well worn notebook.

Braden and his mother say they'll keep on blogging, even after he's served his debt to society.

For now, he says he's ready to pay the final consequences for the decisions he's made. But once he's served his time, he says he'll never be back.

"I know people have probably heard this a hundred times,'' he says. "But if you can't do the time, don't do the crime."

Teen in Jail airs on Tampa Bay news channel


Yesterday, Tampa Bay's 10Connects aired a story on my blog. You can see the video here in the blue box in the upper right-hand corner: http://www.wtsp.com/news/local/story.aspx?storyid=110506&catid=8. (Give the video box a minute to load and appear.)

The article that accompanied the video was written by Laura Katcheka, a reporter:

Pinellas Inmate Blogs from Jail

Pinellas County, Florida - "If I haven't said it already, jail sucks," Kelly Shannon Kelly read from a letter written by her 20-year-old son Theodore Braden.

The little boy she had such high hopes for now sits in the Pinellas County Jail facing charges for trafficking MDMA (Ecstasy).

"It's been hard," said Kelly, "He's had the opportunity to travel all over the United States, he's a good writer, a good photographer and he has had the opportunity to make a profession out of that. It's been hard seeing him make those mistakes."

Life behind bars was a consequence Braden admits he never thought about seriously. In and out of trouble since the age of 13, he says the consequences were never more than he could handle.

"When I was a juvenile, it was 21 days here, 21 days there, maybe a couple of month program. It wasn't a big deal," he told 10 Connects reporter Laura Kadechka through video phone at the Pinellas County Jail.

While his mother tried to explain to him things would be different after he became an adult at 18, the lessons were not learned.

"Before I came in here this time, I've been here probably five times just in the last year," said Braden.

He says he only spent a few days at a time in jail, but last year, the consequences changed. He says he was busted during a drug deal. The few days in jail he was used to were long gone.

"In my case, for a few hundred dollars, I might be giving up the next few years of my life," he said.

His stay this time around has exceeded one year.

"Easy money is no way to make money. I'd rather work a minimum wage job for the rest of my life than do what I was doing," he said.

He's had a lot of time to reflect on the decisions he's made and through conversations with his mother, they decided to make his story public.


"We immediately thought that this is a good outlet to get his message across to other people, not only to teens, but to adults as well," said Kelly.

Since Braden doesn't have access to the internet in jail, he writes letters to his mother which she then posts on the blog. If he can't get a letter, Kelly will take notes during her weekly visits with her son.

"They only see sun for two hours a day," she read from a well worn notebook.
Braden says he's made poor choices in life and if his past can change someone else's future, he feels like he can make a difference.

"I never really looked at it that way before. I just looked at it as I've got a bad history, I'll never get a job, I'm going to be a criminal forever. I now see I can do some good," said Braden.

The 20-year-old looks young for his age, but a scar from taking a lead pipe and beer bottle to the face shows a violent past.


I didn't feel anything and it wasn't until the next morning that I woke up and felt incredible pain. My front tooth was broken. The nerves in my other front tooth ended up dying and turned dark. I also had a deep cut above my eyebrow.
I didn't have a job or insurance and couldn't get my teeth fixed, and to this day I have the broken tooth and scar.I barely remember the fight and other people had to tell me what had happened.
Drugs, unfortunately, have this effect and most of the times I've been arrested or injured, I had been taking drugs.
Braden and his mother both say things could have been different.

"I think I might have been too permissive, let him go out and not monitor his friends the way I should have," admitted Kelly.

Her son says it might not have mattered what his mother said, her actions could have spoken louder than words.

"When they're young and start doing the little things, make sure that you punish them. Don't go easy on them," said Braden.

While it's too late to for the should have's and could have's, Braden and his mother are hoping other parents and teens pay attention to their story.

Braden says he's a changed man now. While he realizes his future is going to be very different had he made better choices, he's not giving up hope he can still make a good life for himself.

But his immediate future is unknown.


I had to go to court again yesterday. It was the fifth or sixth time I've been to court for my current charges and they keep postponing my hearings.

I have to explain the point system. Most felonies are equal to [an average of] 16 to 22 points each. A first-degree felony equals 56 points. Forty-four points will get you sent to prison.

My charges include drug trafficking and possession of cocaine and marijuana. I was the middleman in a drug deal. The drug dealer and the person who set up the deal are both out on probation.

I currently have 60-something points for all my charges - enough to send me to prison for 40.6 months.

I'm scared.

Braden and his mother say they'll keep on blogging, even after he's served his debt to society.

For now, he says he's ready to pay the final consequences for the decisions he's made. But once he's served his time, he says he'll never be back.

Braden said, "I know people have probably heard this a hundred times, but if you can't do the time, don't do the crime."

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Young Theodore worked for me a few years ago. He was a real nice kid that has just made a few bad choices in life. It sounds like he will be alright if someone just gives him half a chance. I hope to be in a position to hire him again one day soon and will not hesitate to do so if given the chance.
God bless you Ted. Camp Director Ray
7/30/2009 1:49 PM EDT on wtsp.com
Stillsad1 wrote:
I really respect this kid & his mom. He admits he was wrong and takes responsibility for his actions. I truly hope he can turn his life around when he gets out. I don't feel bad that he is there, he deserves to be, but I hope he has learned his lesson.As far as the complaints of only seeing the sun for 2 hours, the food being bad, the phones being too expensive to use, well I think it should be that way, this is a punishment not a resort.I think they should only be fed the basics of bread, water and some sort of gruel...I know it sounds harsh but again this should be a punishment and a place they DO NOT WANT TO COME BACK TO!I don't think jail is a scarey place anymore and it is no longer serving as a deterrent for people. I think jail should hold inmates responsible for their stay. Instead of companies outsourcing customer service/data entry jobs to other countries, they could have the inmates work to pay for their stay in jail, it would be a bargain rate for the company and the tax payers would no longer have to foot the bill for criminals. If the inmates refuse to work or screw up deliberately then they do not eat, they get no bed to sleep on and they don't go outside at all, they never leave their cell. There are alot of hardworking people who do the right thing and they still go to bed at night hungry so why should it be any different for criminals? This way when the inmates get released they have a job skill, if they do well while working during incarceration the company can choose to keep them as an employee so they do not have to worry about not being hired because they have a record, it gives them responsibility and a head start at a second chance and our tax dollars can be better spent elsewhere, plus we are keeping jobs in our country! I think this would be a win win for everyone. I pray this kid does well when he gets out and that he has finally learned his lesson! Good Luck & God Bless!!!
7/30/2009 12:06 AM EDT on wtsp.com
scoopspoop wrote:
would be wonderful if others start doing this also...what a great way to 'go over' your life and teach others!
7/29/2009 6:22 PM EDT on wtsp.com
momlb wrote:
Some kids have to learn the hard way.Good luck
7/29/2009 5:58 PM EDT on wtsp.com
StPeteRickster wrote:
Very interesting blog....I see the still have the phone that charges $10+ for a collect call for the inmates, no regular pay phone, so calling friends or relatives is nearly impossible and most expensive with NO alternatives. Sweetheart deal given to CCA, I would guess.The prices for 'extras' in the commissary are excessive, as well.Please don't tell me that we are trying to turn our jails into a profit making entity, as well....From what I have read about Corrections Corporation of America, CCA - they and their 'McPrisons' should be put out of business. Not sure if this is CCA running this jail but it sure sounds like it.Just a thought to finish, if the inmates are supposed to learn respect and decency for other members of the community (rehabilitation), why do the guards treat them in a way that will make them do the opposite??Is like beating a dog, even the best breed will go vicious, if provoked enough times.The blog is eye-opening, for me and I think the writer, as well.I hope he continues to write, I think it does him well.Keep your head low, stay out of trouble and Good Luck to you, I hope you get out soon.
7/29/2009 5:06 PM EDT on wtsp.com
StPeteRickster wrote:
Now this was a story worth reading, very powerful and with a human touch.I hope this young man can overcome his past and be a contributing member of society, someday soon.Am going to read the blog, now.
7/29/2009 4:52 PM EDT on wtsp.com

The most painful thing

"The bad times show you who your good friends are." - Teen in Jail

The worst part for me about coming to jail was losing my girlfriend.

I know everybody says there are plenty of fish in the sea, but when you really are in love with someone and you lose them, it hurts more than anything.

When I first got in here (this time), all I did was hold onto the thought that she would wait for me 'til I got out - no matter how long it takes.

I was stupid of course.

After a month or so, I never thought I would hear from her again. She didn't visit, write a letter or anything.

After five months, she finally came to see me - which got my hopes up.

And then, once again she stopped coming again.

Well anyway, if you're wondering how much I've heard from her in the last 10 months, all I got was three letters and two visits.

This is the most painful thing I've ever had to endure.

Monday, July 27, 2009

A lead pipe to the face

A few months before I came to the jail, my friends and I were hanging out at 2 a.m. We had been drinking and taking drugs. A pick-up drove by and two guys shouted out the window at us. I immediately got up and started yelling back.

The guys stopped the pick-up truck in the middle of the road and got out. One hit me across the face with a lead pipe. I fell down, but got right back up. Another hit me in the head with a beer bottle. By this time, I was swinging back and bloodied the face of one of the guys.

My friends were trying to hold me back, but on drugs, you feel like you can do anything.

Eventually, the guys drove off.

I didn't feel anything and it wasn't until the next morning that I woke up and felt incredible pain. My front tooth was broken. The nerves in my other front tooth ended up dying and turned dark. I also had a deep cut above my eyebrow.
I didn't have a job or insurance and couldn't get my teeth fixed, and to this day I have the broken tooth and scar.

I barely remember the fight and other people had to tell me what had happened. Drugs, unfortunately, have this effect and most of the times I've been arrested or injured, I had been taking drugs.