I've spent two years in prison relaying stories sent by letters to a blogger about my crimes, arrests, and life in four Florida prisons, the Pinellas County Jail, juvenile detention and drug rehab. I'm sending a message to others not to make the same mistakes I did.


Thursday, July 30, 2009

Teen in Jail appears in Florida's Sun Sentinel

Mom helps son blog - from jail

Next thing you know, he'll be tweeting. But for now, he's just blogging. A sample:
"If I haven't said it already, jail sucks," Kelly Shannon Kelly read from a letter written by her 20-year-old son Theodore Braden, an inmate in the Pinellas County jail.

The little boy she had such high hopes for now sits in the Pinellas County Jail facing charges for trafficking MDMA (Ecstasy), reports
10 Connects.

Braden has been in and out of trouble since the age of 13. While his mother tried to explain to him things would be different after he became an adult at 18, he didn't learn.

As a kid, his jail stints were a couple of days.

His stay this time around has exceeded one year. And he turned 20 in jail.

His blog
Teen in Jail was born.

He gets a helping hand from his mom.

Since Braden doesn't have access to the internet in jail, he writes letters to her which she then posts on his blog. If he can't get a letter, his mother takes notes during her weekly visits.

"They only see sun for two hours a day," she read from a well worn notebook.

Braden and his mother say they'll keep on blogging, even after he's served his debt to society.

For now, he says he's ready to pay the final consequences for the decisions he's made. But once he's served his time, he says he'll never be back.

"I know people have probably heard this a hundred times,'' he says. "But if you can't do the time, don't do the crime."

Teen in Jail airs on Tampa Bay news channel


Yesterday, Tampa Bay's 10Connects aired a story on my blog. You can see the video here in the blue box in the upper right-hand corner: http://www.wtsp.com/news/local/story.aspx?storyid=110506&catid=8. (Give the video box a minute to load and appear.)

The article that accompanied the video was written by Laura Katcheka, a reporter:

Pinellas Inmate Blogs from Jail

Pinellas County, Florida - "If I haven't said it already, jail sucks," Kelly Shannon Kelly read from a letter written by her 20-year-old son Theodore Braden.

The little boy she had such high hopes for now sits in the Pinellas County Jail facing charges for trafficking MDMA (Ecstasy).

"It's been hard," said Kelly, "He's had the opportunity to travel all over the United States, he's a good writer, a good photographer and he has had the opportunity to make a profession out of that. It's been hard seeing him make those mistakes."

Life behind bars was a consequence Braden admits he never thought about seriously. In and out of trouble since the age of 13, he says the consequences were never more than he could handle.

"When I was a juvenile, it was 21 days here, 21 days there, maybe a couple of month program. It wasn't a big deal," he told 10 Connects reporter Laura Kadechka through video phone at the Pinellas County Jail.

While his mother tried to explain to him things would be different after he became an adult at 18, the lessons were not learned.

"Before I came in here this time, I've been here probably five times just in the last year," said Braden.

He says he only spent a few days at a time in jail, but last year, the consequences changed. He says he was busted during a drug deal. The few days in jail he was used to were long gone.

"In my case, for a few hundred dollars, I might be giving up the next few years of my life," he said.

His stay this time around has exceeded one year.

"Easy money is no way to make money. I'd rather work a minimum wage job for the rest of my life than do what I was doing," he said.

He's had a lot of time to reflect on the decisions he's made and through conversations with his mother, they decided to make his story public.


"We immediately thought that this is a good outlet to get his message across to other people, not only to teens, but to adults as well," said Kelly.

Since Braden doesn't have access to the internet in jail, he writes letters to his mother which she then posts on the blog. If he can't get a letter, Kelly will take notes during her weekly visits with her son.

"They only see sun for two hours a day," she read from a well worn notebook.
Braden says he's made poor choices in life and if his past can change someone else's future, he feels like he can make a difference.

"I never really looked at it that way before. I just looked at it as I've got a bad history, I'll never get a job, I'm going to be a criminal forever. I now see I can do some good," said Braden.

The 20-year-old looks young for his age, but a scar from taking a lead pipe and beer bottle to the face shows a violent past.


I didn't feel anything and it wasn't until the next morning that I woke up and felt incredible pain. My front tooth was broken. The nerves in my other front tooth ended up dying and turned dark. I also had a deep cut above my eyebrow.
I didn't have a job or insurance and couldn't get my teeth fixed, and to this day I have the broken tooth and scar.I barely remember the fight and other people had to tell me what had happened.
Drugs, unfortunately, have this effect and most of the times I've been arrested or injured, I had been taking drugs.
Braden and his mother both say things could have been different.

"I think I might have been too permissive, let him go out and not monitor his friends the way I should have," admitted Kelly.

Her son says it might not have mattered what his mother said, her actions could have spoken louder than words.

"When they're young and start doing the little things, make sure that you punish them. Don't go easy on them," said Braden.

While it's too late to for the should have's and could have's, Braden and his mother are hoping other parents and teens pay attention to their story.

Braden says he's a changed man now. While he realizes his future is going to be very different had he made better choices, he's not giving up hope he can still make a good life for himself.

But his immediate future is unknown.


I had to go to court again yesterday. It was the fifth or sixth time I've been to court for my current charges and they keep postponing my hearings.

I have to explain the point system. Most felonies are equal to [an average of] 16 to 22 points each. A first-degree felony equals 56 points. Forty-four points will get you sent to prison.

My charges include drug trafficking and possession of cocaine and marijuana. I was the middleman in a drug deal. The drug dealer and the person who set up the deal are both out on probation.

I currently have 60-something points for all my charges - enough to send me to prison for 40.6 months.

I'm scared.

Braden and his mother say they'll keep on blogging, even after he's served his debt to society.

For now, he says he's ready to pay the final consequences for the decisions he's made. But once he's served his time, he says he'll never be back.

Braden said, "I know people have probably heard this a hundred times, but if you can't do the time, don't do the crime."

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flagdude wrote:
Young Theodore worked for me a few years ago. He was a real nice kid that has just made a few bad choices in life. It sounds like he will be alright if someone just gives him half a chance. I hope to be in a position to hire him again one day soon and will not hesitate to do so if given the chance.
God bless you Ted. Camp Director Ray
7/30/2009 1:49 PM EDT on wtsp.com
Stillsad1 wrote:
I really respect this kid & his mom. He admits he was wrong and takes responsibility for his actions. I truly hope he can turn his life around when he gets out. I don't feel bad that he is there, he deserves to be, but I hope he has learned his lesson.As far as the complaints of only seeing the sun for 2 hours, the food being bad, the phones being too expensive to use, well I think it should be that way, this is a punishment not a resort.I think they should only be fed the basics of bread, water and some sort of gruel...I know it sounds harsh but again this should be a punishment and a place they DO NOT WANT TO COME BACK TO!I don't think jail is a scarey place anymore and it is no longer serving as a deterrent for people. I think jail should hold inmates responsible for their stay. Instead of companies outsourcing customer service/data entry jobs to other countries, they could have the inmates work to pay for their stay in jail, it would be a bargain rate for the company and the tax payers would no longer have to foot the bill for criminals. If the inmates refuse to work or screw up deliberately then they do not eat, they get no bed to sleep on and they don't go outside at all, they never leave their cell. There are alot of hardworking people who do the right thing and they still go to bed at night hungry so why should it be any different for criminals? This way when the inmates get released they have a job skill, if they do well while working during incarceration the company can choose to keep them as an employee so they do not have to worry about not being hired because they have a record, it gives them responsibility and a head start at a second chance and our tax dollars can be better spent elsewhere, plus we are keeping jobs in our country! I think this would be a win win for everyone. I pray this kid does well when he gets out and that he has finally learned his lesson! Good Luck & God Bless!!!
7/30/2009 12:06 AM EDT on wtsp.com
scoopspoop wrote:
would be wonderful if others start doing this also...what a great way to 'go over' your life and teach others!
7/29/2009 6:22 PM EDT on wtsp.com
momlb wrote:
Some kids have to learn the hard way.Good luck
7/29/2009 5:58 PM EDT on wtsp.com
StPeteRickster wrote:
Very interesting blog....I see the still have the phone that charges $10+ for a collect call for the inmates, no regular pay phone, so calling friends or relatives is nearly impossible and most expensive with NO alternatives. Sweetheart deal given to CCA, I would guess.The prices for 'extras' in the commissary are excessive, as well.Please don't tell me that we are trying to turn our jails into a profit making entity, as well....From what I have read about Corrections Corporation of America, CCA - they and their 'McPrisons' should be put out of business. Not sure if this is CCA running this jail but it sure sounds like it.Just a thought to finish, if the inmates are supposed to learn respect and decency for other members of the community (rehabilitation), why do the guards treat them in a way that will make them do the opposite??Is like beating a dog, even the best breed will go vicious, if provoked enough times.The blog is eye-opening, for me and I think the writer, as well.I hope he continues to write, I think it does him well.Keep your head low, stay out of trouble and Good Luck to you, I hope you get out soon.
7/29/2009 5:06 PM EDT on wtsp.com
StPeteRickster wrote:
Now this was a story worth reading, very powerful and with a human touch.I hope this young man can overcome his past and be a contributing member of society, someday soon.Am going to read the blog, now.
7/29/2009 4:52 PM EDT on wtsp.com

The most painful thing

"The bad times show you who your good friends are." - Teen in Jail

The worst part for me about coming to jail was losing my girlfriend.

I know everybody says there are plenty of fish in the sea, but when you really are in love with someone and you lose them, it hurts more than anything.

When I first got in here (this time), all I did was hold onto the thought that she would wait for me 'til I got out - no matter how long it takes.

I was stupid of course.

After a month or so, I never thought I would hear from her again. She didn't visit, write a letter or anything.

After five months, she finally came to see me - which got my hopes up.

And then, once again she stopped coming again.

Well anyway, if you're wondering how much I've heard from her in the last 10 months, all I got was three letters and two visits.

This is the most painful thing I've ever had to endure.

Monday, July 27, 2009

A lead pipe to the face

A few months before I came to the jail, my friends and I were hanging out at 2 a.m. We had been drinking and taking drugs. A pick-up drove by and two guys shouted out the window at us. I immediately got up and started yelling back.

The guys stopped the pick-up truck in the middle of the road and got out. One hit me across the face with a lead pipe. I fell down, but got right back up. Another hit me in the head with a beer bottle. By this time, I was swinging back and bloodied the face of one of the guys.

My friends were trying to hold me back, but on drugs, you feel like you can do anything.

Eventually, the guys drove off.

I didn't feel anything and it wasn't until the next morning that I woke up and felt incredible pain. My front tooth was broken. The nerves in my other front tooth ended up dying and turned dark. I also had a deep cut above my eyebrow.
I didn't have a job or insurance and couldn't get my teeth fixed, and to this day I have the broken tooth and scar.

I barely remember the fight and other people had to tell me what had happened. Drugs, unfortunately, have this effect and most of the times I've been arrested or injured, I had been taking drugs.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Chuck Norris

I can put up with a lot of crap. I put up with other inmates talking crap. I put up with this stuff they call food. I put up with it being loud all the time. I can put up with just about anything this place can throw at me, but the one thing I have a hard time dealing with is the infamous 'Chuck Norris', a guard in the Pinellas County Jail.

His name isn't really Chuck Norris, of course, but he thinks of himself as Chuck Norris. His hat has C. Norris written on the back of it. His screen saver on his computer is of Chuck Norris holding two guns.

Actually, he likes to watch you suffer. At 8:30 a.m. every morning (30 minutes before we wake up), he is on the loudspeaker giving a speech about how we should be model citizens and act like angels. He will also announce that when we play cards, we are not allowed to "slap" the cards on the table, wear shorts in the dayroom, go into other people's rooms, and we are only allowed to play cards on one side of the dayroom - according to "Florida Jail Standards".

Besides the love of hearing himself speak, he also loves to make the inmates' lives more miserable than they already are. For instance, if you're standing in a walkway tying your shoe or something, he will write you up for blocking a fire evacuation route. Or if you don't have a shirt on, he will write you up for violating the "no-nipple rule" according to "Sub-section 7-A of the Penal Code", as he likes to say.

Every morning prior to him coming in, I wake up, make my bed, dress in full uniform, and make sure there's nothing for him to yell at me about (which he loves to do). It seems no matter what I do, he always finds something new to yell at me about.

On one particular morning, I did as I always do when I know Chuck Norris is coming to work. After I made sure I was in full uniform, bed made, shoes straight, and no trash on the floor, I laid back down. Later, when he came in to do his first population count, he came into my room and yelled at me for not having my uniform shirt on and told me to pack my stuff and move.

At that point, I jumped up and confronted him. I told him I did have my shirt on and he was wrong. I said he had no reason to move me. He didn't like that at all. He went back in my room and flipped my mattress in an angry rage.

To make a long story short - after me cursing and wanting to see the sergeant - I ended up moving, but later approached Chuck and told him how I felt. I asked him why he screwed with me more than anyone and I told him that I believe he had it out for me - which I knew for a fact was true because another deputy told me so.

Anyway, ever since then, he has hardly said anything to me. I'm not sure why, but I'm happy with it. Unfortunately, I still have to deal with him turning the TVs off while he gives a 20-minute speech about nipples or some other crap.

(Names have been changed.)

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Worried about the future

I had to go to court again yesterday. It was the fifth or sixth time I've been to court for my current charges and they keep postponing my hearings.

I have to explain the point system. Most felonies are equal to [an average of] 16 to 22 points each. A first-degree felony equals 56 points. Forty-four points will get you sent to prison.

My charges include trafficking MDMA (Ecstasy) and possession of cocaine and marijuana. I was the middleman in a drug deal. The drug dealer and the person who set up the deal are both out on probation.

I currently have 60-something points for all my charges - enough to send me to prison for 40.6 months.

I'm scared.

I could possibly get house arrest or get sent to a drug-rehab program. My parents are hoping I get sent to a local rehab called Solid Rock. They get you a job and provide housing and teach you to be responsible for yourself - pay your own bills and live on your own.

But I could easily be sent to prison too. If I get sent there, mostly likely I won't be sent far away. Due to budget cuts, most inmates sentenced to prison are sent closer to their homes. They want to save money on bus tickets when the prisoners are sent home.

There is also a prison work camp right near the Pinellas County Jail (behind Checkers at Ulmerton and 49th St).

The Pinellas County Jail currently has an overload of federal inmates. They're from Columbia, Brazil and other such countries, and are awaiting trial on drug charges from the cocaine trade. They will eventually be sent to prison.

My charge - drug trafficking - carries a sentence of 3 years and a $50,000 fine. I'll have to wait for at least another month, but probably more, to find out what will happen.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

The ultimate in boredom

If I haven't already said it, jail sucks.

The days are filled with indescribable boredom. I live with four or five other men in a room - depending on who comes and goes. There are no bars. Our room is one of 16 rooms - eight on the top floor and eight on the bottom floor that make up our pod in the central jail building. The center of our pod has a common room that is two stories high.


The common room has two TVs. One is always tuned to the Spanish channel and one is tuned to sports. I don't speak Spanish and don't like watching sports, so I never watch TV.

There are little tables with two chairs in the central room of the pod. There's enough seating for the 72 inmates in our pod. There's also a microwave and hot water heater to heat up food from the commissary.


There's four pods on each floor of the central jail building. Although there are six floors in the building, there are three floors that have two-story central rooms. Each central room has two floors of 16 inmate rooms.

Most rooms have two bunkbeds. Some rooms also have a twin metal frame bed in addition to the two bunkbeds - so there are four to five inmates to a room. Below the beds are metal cubes about 8" X 12" to hold each inmate's belongings. All the beds and cubes are bolted to the floor and walls.

I mostly play cards or Monopoly. Hours and hours of cards gets old really fast though.

Sometimes someone is lucky enough to get a book in the mail. Books must be sent through a book dealer and my mom orders books sometimes through eBay or Amazon. We can only get three books at a time. Magazines have to come directly from the publisher. The other guys and I share books, but there's never enough stuff to read.

We can go outside whenever we want. The empty courtyard has walls so high we can only see one patch of sky and nothing else, so I don't go out there much.

You can see the sun for about two hours a day from 5 to 7. At that time, the courtyard is really crowded with the younger inmates who speak English. The courtyard is about 1/3 the size of a basketball court and from 5 to 7 a lot of inmates play basketball. Other times, the Spanish inmates kick a soccer ball around. There are no weights, but some inmates will do push-ups and sit-ups.

People can bring us money orders for the commissary. The amount of food they give you here leaves me hungry all the time, so when I get money from my parents, I buy lots and lots of Ramen noodles so I'm not so hungry. You can also buy snacks.

Some of the prices:

Ramen noodles - .69
19-ounce jar of juice - $3
Instant coffee that lasts a week - $3.50
Stick of sausage - $1.90
Candy bar - $1
Teeny bag of chips - $1
Jolly Ranchers - $1.35
Honey bun - $1


Breakfast is between 3:30 a.m. and 4 a.m. Yup. You read that right. A.M.

Some days, breakfast is potatoes and meat. Other days it's grits and eggs - the eggs are made from a powder. On other days, breakfast consists of cornflakes and a peanut butter sandwich. We also get a tiny juice and a carton of milk.

We can make collect calls, but two short phone calls costs $25, so my parents can't afford that. They try to visit once a week for an hour.

Visitation is now down by video phone. Visitors go to a one-story building and see the person in jail on a monitor. On my side, I can see the old glass walls where prisoners and visitors used to sit across from one another and talk through the glass. The monitors are set inside the glass. Beyond the glass, I can see stored supplies, such as rolls and rolls of 1-ply toilet tissue.

Sending a message to the world from jail

I'm writing this blog from the Pinellas County Jail in Clearwater, Florida. You might've heard of the jail before - this is where Hulk Hogan's son was incarcerated.

Why am I writing this blog? To send a message to the world: How I came to be here, what the conditions are like, how the inmates are treated and what the future may or may not hold for me.

I've been here for over a year. I'll explain exactly what I did for the last seven years that landed me in such a place.

Most of all, I'd like to keep other teens from hopefully making the same mistakes I made - I could end up going from jail to prison.

Hopefully, you will pass this on to those you know who may be having problems of some sort - whether they're teens or adults. Maybe it will touch at least one life.

You can send a message to me at
Teeninjail@yahoo.com. The person who is writing my words will get the messages to me.